Long Time No Entry

Well yeah....hmm not sure what to write, haven't written in a long while. Well now I work at Quizno's, not my dream job, but not bad at all for college money. Gloria and I've been writing back and forth, I'm starting to miss her, missing the old times when we would walk down the street and yell at cars passing and jump in shopping carts and push each other to taco bell and threw the drive thru at 1 am. Or dress like old ladies with moo moo's and curling irons stuck in our hair and go to the mall. I'm not to good at making friends and keeping them, it seems that once I become really good friends with someone, we start to hate each other. But with Gloria and I were both so weird and we don't let our selves become to close of friends so we can stay friends, does that make any sense at all? Yeah but, here's an example...I moved in with a couple of friends of mine just until I saved enough money so we can all move in together. We became really good friends then one day we got in a big fight and I come home from work with my shit on the front porch and they stole my cell phone and my fuzzy pillows that Gary bought me, AND YOU JUST DON'T MESS WITH A GIRLS FUZZY PILLOWS!!! So we don't talk anymore, but this is exactly why I try only to have guy friends cause girls will freak out on you like that. I've recently had a heartache happen to me that I would only feel conformable talking to friends about, like Shay, nani, or Tim...etc. But its changed me and I'm pretty depressed lately and I'm sorry if you noticed, to most of you that know me I can be pretty crazy and wild but lately I've been quite , long faced, and for once in my life a short for words, I suppose things happen for a reason I've always believed that but now I'm doubting it, I'm mad at God for giving this to me and letting me get used to it then snatching it away, people I love keep reminding me that's its not my fault and that again things happen for reasons but I'm human and I still have my doubts. At times like this I'm glade I have this to express my feelings and let them out. I'll write later <3333

Damn i havnt written in awhile, well i've been busy crying my eyes out cause gary got a job and now i see him less, im so worried him and i arnt going to last, he means alot to me but hmm...well off that depressing subject....and onto a new one i  got my report card this weekend and almost all d's and f'd im so pissed, im never going to be anything not if i dont stop day dreaming and do my work. well i really better go to sleep so i wont bitch at my gma when she tries to get me up in the moring but you know what fuck that she pisses me off like just right now she walked in here bitching to me about the damn computer cause im keeping her up, but i know she enjoys getting up and bitching at me cause shes a crank and she a mentaposal nightmare i'll probaly stay up till 2am so i can watch inyuashia and closed case, well G nite ppl i will write tomorrow or before the end of this month i promise hehe kisses

O YEAH AND SHAY IF U READ MY XANGA AND I HAVNT ALREADY ASKED U , IF U HAVNT NOTICED I NEED A BACKGROUND BAD HELP ME FIND ONE ! I WUV U SHAY

I LOVE YOU GARY!!!!!!

Well...hey y'all im so bored right now, so ive been doing alot since school started, im taking up dance again, cause i know i should have never stopped. And i have an art class for my painting and drawing stuff i like to do, and then last but not least, i have photography, I LOVE IT! Gary took it his junior i think, then he was an advanced student his senior year and he is awesome at it. And hmm i dunno i still dont know what i want to do for a career but i really wanna be a dancer, but shh dont tell anyone cause my Boppy thinks its retarded and i think Gary would feel the same way. I just wish i was interesting in more things than art. I do enjoy dead things well.. bye

I LOVE GARY!!!!